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She feels that she is more

unique than someone else?

Is she just

a paycheck performer?

If so, what is she looking

to do, big picture?

Because some girls think,

you know,

"I'm gonna work for a year

or two and make some money

And put it aside and then

I'll do something else."

And I'm like, "yeah, you're not

doing something else.

You're gonna have at any

other job, someone's gonna

know what you've done."

You have to be done with

the business before the business

is done with you.

And, to many people,

I've seen the business

be done with them

before they were ready,

And it's devastating.

Since I retired,

I made a promise

That I would read

at least one book a week.

And I feel like my brain

was starting to go to mush

Because it was so easy to be

the most successful porn star

in the business

Because all I had to do

was follow some really

basic instructions.

I don't think I could ever

walk away from being

lisa ann the porn star.

I don't think there's a country

that I could move to

Where it would be possible.

I have to accept

that what I put out there,

And the amount of years

that I put it out there,

And the willingness

that I put it out there,

There's something to accept

in return for the security

that I've given myself,

The way that I've been able

to live, the adventures

that I've had.

The sidebar is, sure,

everyone knows who I am,

And everyone feels

comfortable to approach me.

You gotta understand something.

There's a comfort when a guy

sees me that's much different

Than when he sees a football

player or basketball player.

He has masturbated to me.

When he looks at me,

and we make eye contact,

And that twinkle happens,

and he remembers

all those moments,

It's a feeling,

it's an adrenaline rush,

It's a thing, right?

I have to be so aware

that I put it out there.

Who would I be to say,

"no, I don't want any of you

to talk about this anymore.

I want this to go away.

I'm no longer her."

I'm still her.

I was naked.

There's no shield

I was wearing that

covered me from being me.

And I used my real name,

so, you know.

I am in porn, yes,

But I'm also in

the transgender industry,

Which is a very small niche.

So in order for one to be able

to excel and have an exit plan,

You have to produce,

you have to direct.

You have to take control

of your own brand

And be able to dictate

your own future.

So, with that said,

that's why I've worked so hard

To get these accolades

and be able to brand myself

As a top performer.

And eventually

be able to develop

my own modeling agency,

And get in and get out, right?

And have a family of my own.

So, I'm 25 now,

So I got a couple

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