INT. COMMUNITY HALL. DAY.
The Church of St. Peter Los Angeles. "WHOEVER YOU SEE HERE -
WHATEVER YOU HEAR HERE - STAYS HERE." That's a notice on a
wall. Here's another notice "NO SMOKING." Everyone is smok-
ing. This is an AA meeting. There's a lot of Faces to look
at. I don't know when we'll get to the one that's talking,
but when we do it's like this. Eyes like glue. 50 years old
with a face the color of a snuff-users hanky. He says this:
.. after my third recovery my wife made
me swear I'd never bring another bottle
into the house. And I never did. I bur-
ied it under the lawn. Cut out a turf &
stood it upright with a piece of tin-
foil instead of a cork. So here we are
out in the yard, and she's happy because
I'm getting healthy in a pair of swim-
ing shorts & no way near no booze. She
decides to prune the roses. Meanwhile,
I'm laying there with a straw stuck in-
to the fucken lawn doing a quart of red ..
Curious thing about drunks. Their disease often amuses them.
That's how crazy I was - I was sick for
half a life till I finally found my san-
ity again in these rooms. Don't take that
drink - And for the one or two new faces
I see here, I say this: just do it by the
day. You gotta do it by the day - Don't
take that drink. And keep coming to these
meetings. Because here is where it works ..
Thank you, Benny .. We have a few more
minutes .. Anyone else like to share? ..
Ash into an ashtray and now a face. He's around 40 years old.
Intense eyes & dark hair. Probably good looking when the ang-
le's right. But this is a bad angle. His name is JOHN BERLIN.
My name's John .. and I'm an alcoholic ..
I didn't intend to speak today. Matter of
fact, I wasn't gonna come to the meeting ..
But I wanna say a couple of things I hope
may be of use, particularly as Benny says,
to the new faces here. I first came into
this fellowship ten months ago. I came to
a meeting I was convinced was gonna be my
last - how could a buncha drunks help me? -
Then someone got up, I think it was Micky,
and described himself as "the shit around
which the universe revolved." I don't know
if that was original to him - it doesn't
matter, it was the first time I'd heard it,
and I still can't think of a better way to
describe how I felt - We all have our own
place in the darkness, and I was in such a
mess I could hardly fucken see - I'd lost
someone very dear to me - she hadn't died -
I had - I don't know whether she left coza
the drinking, or whether I drank coz I knew
she was gonna leave - either way, the booze
won - I replaced her with alcohol & anger -
I was angry with her, myself, everyone and
everything - Where I was I wanted to be
someplace else - any place but here - any
moment but now - But here I am, and it is
now, and there's a big change about to hap-
pen in my life - and I'm going for it coz
this time I know I'm not running away - I'm
actually two miles into a 600 mile journey,
and I feel good about myself going there -
So I stopped off to share that with you -
and to thank everyone of you, and everyone
in this fellowship for letting me walk out
of here, free ..